Why you’re so tight lipped he says, lowering the camera and looking at the image reported back on its digital screen. Oh, he says, because you’re from Connecticut.
Ouch, I say
Exactly, I think
Because as much as I might like to go
Sex sex sex and my cunt
I can’t

I was looking up shrinks in the LA area                                                                        Playing with the idea of bearing my soul in a fifty minute time slot                        Searching online and finding lots of shit – motivational speakers sex therapy heal your relationship in group orgasm workshop - and so on
This made me giggle and blush and think
Exactly

Still I don’t think I’ve ever done it (alright, FUCKED) without a glass or two
Certainly haven’t jerked off in an airplane like Kathy Acker

And sometimes I think, because of all this, I’ve dried up early
Am destined for a solitary life of pens, potted plants, cats

And sometimes I think something still pulses
Something I search for, turn off, return to
The pulsing
Play with, the idea